ennui the real test, not pain

Still pondering the Abyssal truths, and it just occurred to me that dealing with pain and suffering isn’t the real test of falling in – because that can give us focus. TheĀ real test is how we deal with boredom and ennui. I realize this because I am sitting here with nothing to do – something that used to bother me a lot, but now I am not sure what to do. One of the things that bothered me was wasting precious time doing nothing when we only get so little before we die, but that’s no longer a concern of mine – it was and still is a tragedy, but tragedies don’t bother me anymore.

I guess I will go lie down. Feels like I should have a more profound take on it though. To be hopefully continued.